The way it used to be

Hai, I got some mood today and really want to write something. It's like I really lonely in this beatiful time to holiday but I got some busines to do. My Mom called me 100 times, force me to come home as soon as, I said i will after I finished all this shit. I really want to get fresh air, wake up in my confortable room, eat my mother's dish or watching TV with my sister and how I really miss to debates something shit (likes politic maybe) with my father.  

Oh God, I think its so easy to be an adult and everything with their busy business. I am so happy in this time, maybe in this phase, everyone feel the same I know. I really hate fish and chocolate but i dont know why i tried it and eat a lot just because my friend tell me its good for me when  i am feeling mad. I am so happy when i got a job and spend a lot time as a worker, thats so different with my time before, so amazing. Hope I always thank full and be a good person everyday everytime.

I know i ignore the plot and write something doesn't make sense, I like to do that, and i am not a writer so its oke.

Then, I really miss him today, not just today but everyday since I know him. That so scary because I put him in my universe and I see him everywhere. I know he never care or give me hope but its fine to me, its oke to be alone, its oke to get pain sometimes, its oke to upset, thats principle for me, its oke as long as I am a good girl. Maybe he never know what I mean, I mean its oke for me to love someone with my self way. Oh I really want to say to him, "wanna watching movie with me? I really like movie".

I hope everybody in this world got their best time, get loving, be a lover and got a time t say love. I believe in wonderland and this shit make it better. :)